I’ve been petrified of death my whole life. I know everyone’s afraid of dying but some people just shrug it off and accept it with a calmness I’ve never understood. I remember being 5 years old, running in to my dad’s bedroom and having a panic attack about dying. I’ve had these panic attacks my whole life and they’ve always been triggered by the same image that I couldn’t describe accurately if I tried – but it’s like the emptiness and years rolling out after…

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When I first met Jack, I didn’t let him see me without make-up for about 2 months. Like that scene from Bridesmaids, I used to sneak out of bed early so I could re-apply it before he woke up! I was convinced that if he saw me without it, he’d run a million miles. Even now – say we have to leave for an early flight at 4am – I’ll do my make-up (false eyelashes and all!) fresh before bed and sleep in it as…

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If I had to write a list of sure-fire things that cheer me up/boost my mood, 95% of it would consist of eating all the sushi/nachos/ice cream and drinking all the Prosecco/cocktails/peanut butter milkshake with my favourite people. Unfortunately, my bank balance (and wannabe-healthy bod) convinces my brain that unless there’s a seriously good reason – it’s Friday/pay day/*insert catastrophic event here* – there’s another avenue to try before devouring my weekly intake of calories and getting stupid drunk… Music. I’ve got numerous mood-inducing playlists…

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Follow my blog with Bloglovin! Last week I had a bit of a melt down. I’ve been at my new job 3 months today and it’s taken me all this time to get used to my new routine. I love the job – but finding time to adult and do the things that “need” doing (washing, cleaning, ironing), let alone the things I want to do (work outs, drawing, yoga, meditation) has been seriously difficult for me! I’ve been feeling utterly rushed off my feet,…

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