I’ve been petrified of death my whole life. I know everyone’s afraid of dying but some people just shrug it off and accept it with a calmness I’ve never understood. I remember being 5 years old, running in to my dad’s bedroom and having a panic attack about dying. I’ve had these panic attacks my whole life and they’ve always been triggered by the same image that I couldn’t describe accurately if I tried – but it’s like the emptiness and years rolling out after…

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Last Sunday, Jack and I had a horrifying realisation… We hadn’t had a roast dinner since Christmas. That’s 9 whole months of Yorkshire pud deprivation! Such tragedy! Why we’d denied ourselves the pleasure for so long we didn’t know but we did know that it was time to bust out the brussell sprouts. So we made a roast – with all the trimmings. And something about it being a Sunday and having a cosy roast meant it felt right to have a few glasses of wine…

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When I first met Jack, I didn’t let him see me without make-up for about 2 months. Like that scene from Bridesmaids, I used to sneak out of bed early so I could re-apply it before he woke up! I was convinced that if he saw me without it, he’d run a million miles. Even now – say we have to leave for an early flight at 4am – I’ll do my make-up (false eyelashes and all!) fresh before bed and sleep in it as…

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I’ve realised lately that I spend about 50% of my day dreaming about our upcoming holiday to Mexico. I use the word ‘upcoming’ loosely as it’s not until December. But seriously, I am living for this holiday. I am quite literally wishing a whole 5 months of my life away, which is just terrible. But what about when the holiday passes? Do we just book another holiday and count down to the next escape? Shouldn’t we be excited about just living in general? I’ve realised…

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I’m very aware that the internet is saturated with body positivity posts these days but this isn’t your average ‘love yo self’ / ‘you’re beautiful the way you are’ post. My relationship with body positivity has been a rocky one and it’s such a prominent part of my life that I couldn’t not talk about it on this blog. Plus, there’ve been so many great articles that’ve given me advice in times of need that I’d love to be able to help someone along the way.…

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